Just a sudden and very random question I was asking myself. Do I miss Swiss? Or to be more specific, do I miss floorball?

Well as a matter of fact, I do kinda miss playing the sport. Maybe not as a goalie, even though I like the feeling of saving a goal or getting hit by the ball, but maybe as a player.

Come to think of it, I don't miss my team at all. I only miss my closest junior. My whole team is seriously fucked up. I didnt really have pleasant memories in that team despite me being captain. Honestly, I felt pretty left out usually whenever I was with them. And the "them" here refers to the people from my batch. Apparently I had bad blood with this particular person and she wasnt exactly nice to me when I got my position as captain. Simply put, she put the whole team against me, even though on the surface they dont really show it. But when it comes to criticism, they can openly criticise me, even though I was just doing my job, as a captain or a goalie.

That's why I was closer to my juniors. In a way, they make me feel more comfortable when I hang out with them, and they never fail to forget to include me even though I'm the only person who is not from their batch. However, that was the past. This "closeness" shortly ended when I left Swiss. Prove? Let's just say it was REALLY REALLY REALLY AWKWARD when I went out with them at the end of last year.

So what exactly is a "team"? Is this a team? Should this team spirit end when each individual member goes their separate ways? Shouldnt we stay bonded despite whatever? Apparently not for this team.